my 21 day fast -DAY 5: RAINY

This is gonna be short....

I love God and I thank him for the challenges of this fast and why I'm on it.

I told a lie today, and it made me feel like I was gonna die.  It was one of those small lies you think wont do anything but it can cause a ripple effect that you just can't see.  Usually, I would say it, repent, apologize to God and keep moving but today it BUGGED me and BUGGED me. I feel like God is showing me, HEY LOOK.. yea u might feel like that is small and wont bother anyone but SIN is SIN!  No matter the size...  sigh... God is working on me FOR REAL and I am SO THANKFUL!!!

I'm not ashamed of where I am, and I can't wait for where God has to take me.

Hopefully I can get my blog in today and be updated...

I also am going to start a new video blog on YouTube: Dance By Request: DBR!!  I will be letting people request any song they want... I will dance to it and post it on Youtube...

I will occasionally speak but it will mostly be dance.  More on that later...
Okay off to the airport!

iFly!

My 21 day fast -DAY 4: Just Here!!!!

(This technically is day 5 but I will blog again tonight and be caught up)

Well I am just here, praying having strange dreams and moving forward.
Let's talk about this strange dream... give me your interpretation.. I'd love to hear it:

The dream starts out with me running from "the man".  He's "the man" out to get me because I saw something that "they" did not want me to see.  It's night time and I have my dogs with me.  We are running from house to buildings to back allies, until finally we reach a home where they take women who are unemployed and/or in-between jobs. Somehow "the man" does no see me enter this house and disappears.  So I join up with some great women and learn more about what is going on in there lives.  The bonding is GREAT and before we go to bed, the director of the program as me for my info.  Apparently, every month she goes to some kind of bank that gives her money to support us each month.  Now these sums of money are not just hundreds of dollars. Depending on you situation, it could much more.  Like "Jesus can do the impossible" much more.  So she leaves in the AM as everyone is getting up and preparing themselves for the day.  I am paranoid because I don't want "the man" to find me.  The director returns with a bunch of checks for the ladies and begins to hand them out.  One of the ladies is a Lawyer, hasn't been out or work for to long so her check was on $400+ dollars.  Another women, who has been looking for work and has been unsuccessful, received $22,000 dollars!!!!  IN CASH... the director gave her a $22,000 bill!!!  I was like WOW!!! Now being that I only spent the night there and just enrolled I didn't received the amount I would have if I had stayed longer.  I got $4,800 for the month!!!  I was praising God because "the man" was looking for me, I had no home, two dogs, bills and to get that every money would be amazing.  So one of the ladies was like wow you are so lucky... I almost when crazy on her... 
             "LUCK", I said, "LUCK... No sweetie this is a BLESSING"
 As I said then 2 other women said with me at the same time.  I then when on to talk about how God brought me there and I'm so blessed to be alive with that guy following me, no home, not sure where my next meal is coming from.  I was just in awe with God at that moment.  But not to long after that "the man" decided to check every house in that area. So I was on the run again.  I think the dogs stayed there.(?) So I found another place to go, and it was some kind of new apartment where that they were testing.  ANd people were lined up to get in.  So "the man" put on a disguise so I would recognize him but I saw him and ran into a some sort of restricted area.  I pushed a button thinking the elevator would come but instead it open up an air shaft and sucked me up in to the vent.  when I came out, I landed on a desk with this black guy who looked like 50-cent.  He was so confused how I got there.  Right when I was getting ready talk to him, 


Lamar woke me up.
Weird dream right!
Let me know your thoughts.


Any who, I have been videoing myself dancing and it's awesome.. I really love my growth.  Other then that, creating dances for my kids and finishing what needs to be with SHSU!!!
As a part of this fast, I can't watch any TV, movies or Netflix after 10pm.  HARD!!! I usually fall asleep to the tv.  Food is getting better.  Tonight I had Veggie egg rolls, and Broccoli in a garlic sauce... it was soo good!!!

Well I'm out... thanks for reading and for your support...

iLove u!  God Bless... Until next time....

iDream HUGE!!!

My 21 day fast -DAY 3: GOOD DAY!!!!

It was a good day!  I got up early, went to school... Drove around in the stupid parking lot for and HOUR looking for parking.  Since it took took that long, I thought I missed my appointment.  TURNED OUT, The didn't even have me on the schedule :( BOO!!!

So I find a spot and go to the The writing center.  I just SAT and did random things on my computer.  Once I left, I went to the dance building and took class... 3 hours of dance to be exact.  LOVE IT!

On the drive home, stopped at the toyota dealership and the vet.  Gotta make sure the kiddies are taken care of. Then STRAIGHT to the gym...

Now because of this fast, I thought that I would not have been able to make through the class, but man... them PEANUTS, and that protein drink saved ME!  I had more energy then when I would eat some "real food".  After I left there, Smoothie King (LOVE IT) and HOME!  Ate some potatoes and green beans... and it was a WARP!!!

The best of yesterday was all the dancing I did... I loved it... I mean.. I really love to dance!  I don't know where it is going to eventually take me but I LOVE DOING WHAT I DO!!!

Until next time....

iDo what iLove!

Ehhh

So I've decided to take my friend's advice and blog whenever it hit me to write. I use to love writing... or at least I thought I did. I pray this last longer then xanga. I had to let go of that because I can't blog on the go with xanga.

Today I've been productive. I'm about to leave the house and run some errands before I get to work. I have to remember the dances I taught my kids. (looks around for an answer). I'll remember by 5pm.

EZ tag needed to get to work but I can't get it until my dad gets back. That will not be until later on today. So gotta find some cash....

Speaking of cash.. I applied for this job at Aldos. Hopefully the discount is nice so when I save up some change I can get shoes and a new purse. But I gotta save a much as possible. The move to NY will not happen on it's own. NEW YORK!!!

Maybe my blogs will be more interesting when I move, cause right now... BORING! Be blessed read the bible...

Stop writing it in your head, and put it down on the pad ~s.lamour