Another Day

I'm praying that I don't slip into a depression... I've never been this long with out work, or doing something.  I'm so ready to work.  I'm sleeping all the time. Jesus help

Internal battles

I would say that I rely on God heavily... however lately my struggle with my flesh has been the worst EVER. I mean it's always been there but I didn't have to work as hard as I have been lately to stay away.

It's been 7 years since I've had sex. After I got saved 2003, I promised God and myself that I would wait until He sent me my husband.

It hasn't been easy nor did I expect it to be. There were times I came close to falling back but I made out some how. But lately I find myself running towards it at full speed and then stop and stare at it like man... I want that. I end up turning the other way but usually I run... now I just casually stroll away secretly hoping to get pulled back.

It's painfull because I can't just see me throwing away all this time I've spent saving myself for that one person.

And then I don't care anymore. :( It just brings me to tears. I know I'll make it through. Confessions of a Christian woman: I want to have sex. But I don't want to lose myself.

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Finding Balance

So It's been a month since I moved back.  The Sunday after I moved back I barely had a chance to unpack and feel somewhat at home.  I had to travel to Wichita, Kansas for a teaching job on July 18th.  That was fun!  I love going there but I don't think I could live there.  It's a bit bare.  This was my third time teaching there.

I returned on the 23rd of July.  The next day I attended a beautiful union between my dean and soror Diyale and her now husband Justin.  Although I got to the ceremony late because we had a tropical storm that brought down trees and what not, what I saw was magical and awesome.

After leaving the wedding, the search was on for an iHop.  My homie Cherece and I drove to 5 different iHops until we found one with power.  IT WAS PACKED.. No were had power and people were hungry.  BUT we finally got to eat.

By July 28 I was on the bus heading to NY for an audition on the 29th.  I stayed at my grandparents house.  Didn't get to audition which sucked so I hung around until Sat. When I got home I had to pack and leave on Tue for ATL.

The drive to ATL was grand and Alpha Nu Omega, Inc. 2010 National Convention was GREAT!!!  Although I was tired most of the time the overall trip was great and I learned a lot. So I get home from ATL on Monday... I was BEAT DOG TIRED!!!!  I'm thinking YES finally I get to just be home unpack continue job searches... Well that would not be the case

My cousin called and said, "Are you still going with me to NJ??"
"Of course", I said having promised to go with her a month ago.  What I didn't realize is that it was that week.  I just got home.. but back out I went... and here I still am.

This week has been great but I miss home... back to DMV today and then I'll be moving to NYC in about two weeks... I just stay moving!!!!